Shades

However life is full of happiness and sorrows, I'm glad that there is always someone to hold me from fall, by God's grace. Someone could be anyone, a very close friend, a family member or a friend whom I talk once in a blue moon.

The point is that I was never like this. I have changed. I changed myself more than the demand of life.

The change is good most of the times. Now, I want one more change and that I'll bring for sure. I want to behave like a little brat which I used to be in my childhood days. Lets see how far I'll be able to bring that change in me. Even this change is recent. I changed like hell in past one year. From past some

months it is overcoming me like nothing. How could anyone or anything can take charge from me like this. Its my life. I could never let anyone conquer my holds on life. I want to lead, thats all and I'm going to do that.

Some days ago, I consoled G. She was depressed due to some issues and I asked her why you take all these problems so seriously. Why are you thinking that all the wrong things happen to you. Even everyone have some or the other stuff to fight with. Its not only with you sweetheart. Last but not the least I advised her that never say to your life, "why me" instead say "dear, try me"(lines taken from some message.. :P)..... she's was consoled entirely... :):)...(she still don't know about the message.... :D) But the point is that I could console her & myself and bring back my enthusiasm for life by these messaged words.. :)

During all this really really bad stuff, I got one more challenge in life. I believe this isn't going to be that tough but I need time to work over this second challenge. As my examinations are very close. My one of the biggest challenge in life so far. Its time to pull my socks up to clear them. There is no time but I always have time for my sweet blogs.... :D

Wish me luck with this full of struggles and challenges life!

Bless you!

Love Life- Its a Glorious Gift

Since my birthday or even before that I was confused over something. This something was difficult to express. There was something which was bothering me from past some time and as usual I was not able to figure this out. I took such a long span of time to realize this but I don't wonder over this, I take time I know. Rather whenever I ponder and muse about anything for a long time only then become capable to rectify the loops of my problems. But the point is after such a long time I got to know today about the thing I was bitterly tensed. I gave it a thought when in metro I was trying hard to read a novel. It was really difficult to understand the words of a paragraph given in it. I read them so many times and I got it and I got to know what was bothering me altogether. Its so strange that I realized it finally because I thought that I'll never be able to figure this out.

Early morning I got up and went for my aerobic classes. During my class I remembered that today I'm suppose to meet my college friends. I sometimes forget some work after my sweet night sleep. As my class got over, I came back with little steps to home. I had my breakfast and enjoyed it to its best. I started getting ready to leave. I left home soon and while my journey.... I did nothing but looked around, read a bit, took the ladies seat from someone and lost in my own world like always!! As I was about to reach Delhi University Metro Station, I realized the problem from which even now I'm not completely able to cope. Tears filled my eyes and I realized that I was still waiting for the miracle to happen. The miracle which cannot occur and I know its better to leave this stuff as it is rather than pondering over this more and more. Life goes on and we should not stuck with one thing. We should learn to forget and move ahead.

I began to work over not remember any thought as the whole day was lying ahead of me. I cannot unfold myself in front of my tears. I realized what I was lacking and what I basically needed from past sometime.

The day started when I saw H & R on the metro station, A coming from some steps far, P on a bicycle(almost hitting me) and V just arrived. Someone called VT & then we decided to step ahead towards Arts of Faculty. Rj joined us there. After that we stuffed ourselves with pizzas.

While going back to Metro Station we visited J.P. Stall to have a sip of tea. I called P while our walk and almost everyone was walking behind us. I opened my arms to hug him and he hugged slightly & asked me "what happen?". I said nothing and diverted the conversation. Yes, I confess now that I was about to cry bitterly like a little girl. Thanks a ton P, the hug worked. I was not able to cope with it alone. That hug worked. It doesn't matter how many times we hugged each other since morning but I really needed that one.

We came back to metro station and some 4 of us decided to watch a theatre play. We watched that and left for our home.

If I look at the entire day, then I'll must say that there were many best things happened in one day. The realization, coping with my problem(which was basically my imaginary world), metro's journey after a long time, a look of campus area, a hug from P, a theatre play, a beautiful day with all of my sweetheart friends without whom I'm nothing and one more important thing a hug from D too(unexpected but awesome) and a hug from J too(when he arrived home)!

Ended the day with a little counselling on a call with VT which I needed. I don't know how he got to know about the thing I was seeking for. I just want to say "Love you all" and thanks a zillion for being in my life. All I want to say is that please stay as you are as all of you are wonderful and perfect. Realizations comes but hugs and love can never replace anything.

The Book

I tried to burn The Book

but I got scared

when I saw myself

burning with it.

I thought it was part of

mine but I'm astonished

to see that I was

a part of it.

I thought things will be

different in its ashes

but I doubt the ashes would be

made out of me.

But I'll burn This Book for sure

whether it'll cost my ashes,

because I know sweetheart

that I have to burn it entirely

to bring a new life

out of This Book.