Love Life- Its a Glorious Gift

Since my birthday or even before that I was confused over something. This something was difficult to express. There was something which was bothering me from past some time and as usual I was not able to figure this out. I took such a long span of time to realize this but I don't wonder over this, I take time I know. Rather whenever I ponder and muse about anything for a long time only then become capable to rectify the loops of my problems. But the point is after such a long time I got to know today about the thing I was bitterly tensed. I gave it a thought when in metro I was trying hard to read a novel. It was really difficult to understand the words of a paragraph given in it. I read them so many times and I got it and I got to know what was bothering me altogether. Its so strange that I realized it finally because I thought that I'll never be able to figure this out.

Early morning I got up and went for my aerobic classes. During my class I remembered that today I'm suppose to meet my college friends. I sometimes forget some work after my sweet night sleep. As my class got over, I came back with little steps to home. I had my breakfast and enjoyed it to its best. I started getting ready to leave. I left home soon and while my journey.... I did nothing but looked around, read a bit, took the ladies seat from someone and lost in my own world like always!! As I was about to reach Delhi University Metro Station, I realized the problem from which even now I'm not completely able to cope. Tears filled my eyes and I realized that I was still waiting for the miracle to happen. The miracle which cannot occur and I know its better to leave this stuff as it is rather than pondering over this more and more. Life goes on and we should not stuck with one thing. We should learn to forget and move ahead.

I began to work over not remember any thought as the whole day was lying ahead of me. I cannot unfold myself in front of my tears. I realized what I was lacking and what I basically needed from past sometime.

The day started when I saw H & R on the metro station, A coming from some steps far, P on a bicycle(almost hitting me) and V just arrived. Someone called VT & then we decided to step ahead towards Arts of Faculty. Rj joined us there. After that we stuffed ourselves with pizzas.

While going back to Metro Station we visited J.P. Stall to have a sip of tea. I called P while our walk and almost everyone was walking behind us. I opened my arms to hug him and he hugged slightly & asked me "what happen?". I said nothing and diverted the conversation. Yes, I confess now that I was about to cry bitterly like a little girl. Thanks a ton P, the hug worked. I was not able to cope with it alone. That hug worked. It doesn't matter how many times we hugged each other since morning but I really needed that one.

We came back to metro station and some 4 of us decided to watch a theatre play. We watched that and left for our home.

If I look at the entire day, then I'll must say that there were many best things happened in one day. The realization, coping with my problem(which was basically my imaginary world), metro's journey after a long time, a look of campus area, a hug from P, a theatre play, a beautiful day with all of my sweetheart friends without whom I'm nothing and one more important thing a hug from D too(unexpected but awesome) and a hug from J too(when he arrived home)!

Ended the day with a little counselling on a call with VT which I needed. I don't know how he got to know about the thing I was seeking for. I just want to say "Love you all" and thanks a zillion for being in my life. All I want to say is that please stay as you are as all of you are wonderful and perfect. Realizations comes but hugs and love can never replace anything.